As some of you may or may not know I have always dreamt of a lifestyle where I could just travel all over the world. A way of life that is just free and I follow my heart and intuition experiencing life and enjoying what other cultures have to offer. Without fear just trusting the doors will open. Having incredible experiences good food, wonderful scenery and meeting new people.
Finally I made it happen. 2019 I had gone on this venture and I didn't get far. I had a plan resources and lots of ambition. Everything I was manifesting in the blink of an eye. Sometimes by just thinking it. I was the best healthiest version of myself. I fell in love, and changed my plans stayed in sisters for a year. The relationship was amazing until it wasn't. In the long run we were on different stages in our life he wanted stability and a place to call home forming roots and stability. I wanted to travel and live life with excitement. Also I realized I was losing who I was and what I wanted. Not meeting my own needs and putting his needs above my own. I became a care taker a stability he needed but at a cost. Co-vid hit and I came back home. Picking up the broken pieces of my heart being completely devastated and depressed unsure of how I would go on in life. Experiencing physical pain because this person was no longer by my side. At that time in my life I believed in finding the one person you spend the rest of your life with and only once. I was certain it was him. I remember I was very mad that he wasn't as sure as I was about our relationship. I was upset that he didn't propose after three months of dating. He never thought he was good enough for me, even though I would move mountains for him. It was time to go inward and heal on soo many levels. Grieving the life I wish I had that we both had planned. Grieving so many things people and experiences. It took me three years to get to a place where I could possibly not be in physical pain and open my heart again. Healing and learning healthy boundaries.
Fast forward to now I finally made it happen again. I had a soul wrenching desire to travel because I didn't get to do it in the way my soul was asking for it. I had friends and family ask me if it was maybe a pipe dream and maybe a way for me to run away. I remember I would get offended because how dare they question me. That's when I realized how much I need to do this for me. Not just because I wanted to visit different countries but because my soul needed it as part of my healing and to become the best version of myself. That's when I learned that when we listen to our inner knowing or deepest desires, things line up and you will make it happen, because you are being true to oneself. I used to live in so much fear and I continually allowed others to dictate my life. BUT NO MORE!
That leads me to now so much happened between my returning back home until now About a year ago it happened again, I met the most wonderful person. Someone I saw myself having a future with. It was an amazing exciting MOST healthy RELATIONSHIP of my life. Some of my close people met him. Everything was amazing. Then he realized he needed to be alone and heal, and I needed to go experience life and be free. Once again different paths. Right person wrong timing. I guess you can call it "UN AMOR FUGAZ!!" I still had this burning need to travel to see the world to experience every ounce this world has to offer. It was very much a need for my soul to succeed, to be at peace. Between 2020 -The break-up of the life of my life, until now I did soo much healing and learning about who I am as a human and as an individual.
It made me reflect drastically on what I want, what I need and what I deserve. Not settling for more than what I deserve and setting healthy boundaries with myself and others including family. Which is a huge subject because boundaries do not exist in Hispanic families. Leaving my few close friends (I like to keep a tight circle) missing me but also being supportive. My best friend who I never thought I would find in this lifetime took me to the airport and wished me well as we both had tears in ours eyes. Being each others emotional support systems for the past year. Change is hard.
That's just a little glimpse of my back story. Now I took the plunge with little money and lots of dreams and ambitions I took off. I am currently in Costa Rica living my best life and opening my heart and soul to all the endless possibilities that are in store for me. Knowing I can get anywhere I desire. Knowing exactly what I want and deserve. I spent the week before I left tying lose ends and selling most of my belongings only keeping the bare necessities. Having my wonderful parents to be able to store my car and belongs at their house. It took me 3 planes to get here and sketchy bus ride and an Uber and I finally made is safe to the hostel.
So far Day 1 I am at a hostel working 5 hours a day for 5 days a week, easiest job ever. Life here is soooo laid back and chill. The opposite of the U.S. I am greeting people at reception and minor cleaning duties. If no one comes I am just sitting up front and reading, greeting people as they come. Answering any questions they may have. Also will be trading with my art skills the owner of the hostel really likes my work and wants me to paint a few murals/paintings. I have already met cool people and made connections. The owner even offered me to stay longer and pay me cash so we shall see what other opportunities come my way. Because I speak both Spanish and English and have many talents and skills I am confident I am going to thrive.
I am so excited for all the possibilities and opportunities that I will discover and getting to know new parts of who I am. The possibilities are endless. I have made the first and most important step, Chosen myself and listening to my inner voice and intuition being guided by the inner light and my inner knowing that never ceases to surprise me. It also never strays me in the wrong direction as long as I listen to it. Change is part of growth.
Vive libre la vida pura!
I am so happy you are finally able to follow your dreams.